Got Em

Changes

Changes a comin. On written warning at work for sixty days for calling in sick too much. I don't like working that much but I do need my job so I'm going to be on my P's and Q's from now on hopefully the new habits stick.

Internet

Its crazy. I can bet on a cricket match in sri lanka from my phone then watch a live stream of the match also from my phone. That shit is insane.

No rest......for the weary..........

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No rest for the weary..........

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No rest for the weary...........

Reread last post

Sounded horrible. All i've lost is gambling stuff and competitive stuff. Nothing actually important.

Unshakeable Confidence

Lost everything lately some how I'll still survive and thrive though.....

Done

With pool and pretty much my free life.

Sweat Bets For 11/28/10 results

Though this would be a longer post but I went a terrible 3-14 not much else to say about that. Tonight I have a parlay. I have the cardinals plus 2 and the under for the game so we'll see how that turns out.

Sweat Bets For Sunday 11/28/10

Single #195705561 (Placed by Web)Football - NFL Team Props (Prop) Total
(PIT vs BUF) Sun, Nov 28th (1:00PM EST)
Pittsburgh Steelers Total Team Points
Game must go 55 minutes for action. Overtime counts towards wager.
(5337) Over Points vs. (5338) Under Points Over 24 (-130) Sun@1:00p
Risk US$ 1.46 to win US$ 1.12
Single #195705417 (Placed by Web)Football - NFL Lines (Game) Point Spread
(237) San Diego Chargers +3 (-125) Sun@8:25p
Competitor:(238) Indianapolis Colts
Risk US$ 1.00 to win US$ 0.80
2 Team Parlay #195705354 (Placed by Web)Football - NFL Lines (Game) Point Spread
(237) San Diego Chargers +3 (-125) Sun@8:25p
Competitor:(238) Indianapolis Colts
Football - NFL Lines (Game) Total
(237) San Diego Chargers vs. (238) Indianapolis Colts Over 51 Sun@8:25p
Risk US$ 1.00 to win US$ 2.44
Single #195695953 (Placed by Web)Basketball - NBA Lines (Game) Point Spread
(708) Los Angeles Clippers +6 Sun@3:35p
Competitor:(707) Utah Jazz
Risk US$ 1.00 to win US$ 0.91
Single #195695952 (Placed by Web)Basketball - NBA Lines (Game) Point Spread
(705) San Antonio Spurs +1 Sun@3:05p
Competitor:(706) New Orleans Hornets
Risk US$ 1.00 to win US$ 0.91
Single #195477767 (Placed by Web)Football - NFL First Halfs (1H) Point Spread
(229) Green Bay Packers +½ Sun@1:00p
Competitor:(230) Atlanta Falcons
Risk US$ 1.00 to win US$ 0.91
Single #195477766 (Placed by Web)Football - NFL Lines (Game) Point Spread
(234) Seattle Seahawks +2 (-105) Sun@4:05p
Competitor:(233) Kansas City Chiefs
Risk US$ 1.00 to win US$ 0.95
Single #195477765 (Placed by Web)Football - NFL Lines (Game) Point Spread
(229) Green Bay Packers +2 Sun@1:00p
Competitor:(230) Atlanta Falcons
Risk US$ 1.00 to win US$ 0.91
2 Team Parlay #195477669 (Placed by Web)Football - NFL First Halfs (1H) Total
(235) St. Louis Rams vs. (236) Denver Broncos Over 22½ Sun@4:15p
Football - NFL First Halfs (1H) Total
(237) San Diego Chargers vs. (238) Indianapolis Colts Over 26 Sun@8:25p
Risk US$ 2.00 to win US$ 5.20
2 Team Parlay #195477561 (Placed by Web)Football - NFL Lines (Game) Point Spread
(229) Green Bay Packers +2 Sun@1:00p
Competitor:(230) Atlanta Falcons
Football - NFL Lines (Game) Point Spread
(234) Seattle Seahawks +2 (-105) Sun@4:05p
Competitor:(233) Kansas City Chiefs
Risk US$ 2.00 to win US$ 5.45
Single #195332599 (Placed by Web)Football - NFL Lines (Game) Point Spread
(236) Denver Broncos -4 (-105) Sun@4:15p
Competitor:(235) St. Louis Rams
Risk US$ 2.00 to win US$ 1.90
Single #195332598 (Placed by Web)Football - NFL Lines (Game) Total
(235) St. Louis Rams vs. (236) Denver Broncos Under 44½ Sun@4:15p
Risk US$ 1.00 to win US$ 0.91
Single #195332597 (Placed by Web)Football - NFL Lines (Game) Total
(217) Pittsburgh Steelers vs. (218) Buffalo Bills Over 43½ Sun@1:00p
Risk US$ 2.00 to win US$ 1.82
Single #195332596 (Placed by Web)Football - NFL Lines (Game) Point Spread
(217) Pittsburgh Steelers -7 (-105) Sun@1:00p
Competitor:(218) Buffalo Bills
Risk US$ 2.00 to win US$ 1.90
Single #195330594 (Placed by Web)Football - NFL Lines (Game) Point Spread
(216) Washington Redskins -1 Sun@1:00p
Competitor:(215) Minnesota Vikings
Risk US$ 2.00 to win US$ 1.82
Single #194985352 (Placed by Web)Football - NFL Lines (Game) Point Spread
(227) Philadelphia Eagles -3½ (-105) Sun@4:15p
Competitor:(228) Chicago Bears
Risk US$ 2.00 to win US$ 1.90
Single #194985351 (Placed by Web)Football - NFL Lines (Game) Point Spread
(217) Pittsburgh Steelers -6½ (-115) Sun@1:00p
Competitor:(218) Buffalo Bills
Risk US$ 2.00 to win US$ 1.74

Damn Damn

Day one of my gambling induced house arrest down eight days to go. Today I just watched tv and drank the rest of my beer and used the rest of my vodka to make a Martini. Then I passed out til 12:30 am now I'm up for probably the rest of the night. Sucks but at least I got tivo'd southpark and family guys.................

I don't need your pussy.......

I'm on my own dick!

What's your forty time??

Friday Night

Had a tough week gambling on pool. Gonna stay home tonight and drink my last forty and cook chicken and follow my 16 dollars of basketball bets. Haven't drank at home solo style in while. Might Get on the e z jeezy tonight too.

Sushi Love Boat

Try/Fail

When you step up when no one else will and then fail in front of all of them are you a big laughing stock for failing or respected for trying when no one else was brave/stupid enough to try?

Sports Betting

I opened a sports betting account several years ago but never placed a bet until last night. I took the Eagles for $5.00 and won! That's what happens with gambling lol you always win your first bet and then your hooked. I originally made the deposit yesterday to bet on the Broncos but instead i'm gonna wait til next week for a game I have a better feel. Being on the east coast I don't see the Broncos or Chargers play to much. Nothing else really goin on.

What does happy have to do with it?

Gin Ohhhhh riiigghhhhhtttt

Fake A Smile

That's all I can do lately..........

25 yards. Not to bad.

Cooking Tips

Tobasco Sauce on baked beans equals delicious!

SCHLITZ MALT LIQUOR

Pool League

I just finished week six of pool league finally lost a match last night. I missed to many critical shots. Did have a break n run though and I ran a rack when my opponent broke dry.
To my surprise I handled the loss with grace and humbleness I guess I deal with losing better when i'm sober then when i'm shit faceded.

Yo

No one wants to be defined by their worst moment

It finally happened

Lost a contact in a strippers Titties.

None

You dance with the person that brought you..........

Pool League

I joined a pool league a few weeks ago. I'm 3-0 so far. Don't plan on losing all session.

My lift

I hate it

I don't believe in Heaven

But hell keeps callin me..........

What boxing with out gloves looks like

How can I be lost when I have no place to go????

How can i blame you when it's me I can't forgive.......

Johnny Walker Black & Kulaha

Yes we call that a "muthafucka"

That's How I Get Dirteeee Martini Style

Seinfeld

I'm glad I've seen all the Seinfeld episodes other wise I'd miss a bunch of inside jokes on all my sports shows.

My Life

Won't last much longer

Disheartened

Sucks when you realize that you've wasted countless hours over a period of years at something completely useless and just was an overall waste of time.
Moving forward I have to find something else to fill the time since I have a lot more of it now.............

Life

Savings all gone is a positive that I lost it believing in myself?

Tom Tucker

Coming up, important traffic news that can't help you because your somewhere where a tv is.

Sleep or lack there of

Passed out exhausted at 11pm woke up for no reason at 245am. Beginning day 8 of sobriety a lil earlier then I would like to but that's okay just glad I got family guy and southpark on the DVR to keep me company.  Good day to any one that reads this. (Me haha)

Girlfriend

Oh smokies when she finds out she's gonna be sore.

No title (except this one)

DVR makes my life bearable.

Jim carrey at his best

Suicide

I had a long conversation with a friend last night about suicide. His best friend passed a few months ago. The police concluded she shot herself in the chest after a non sober fight with her boyfriend. My friend can't accept that she killed herself. I don't understand that. The police have no reason to lie about it and I don't know how some one especially someone inebriated and angry could pull the trigger then manage to get gun powder residue off his hands and on hers in the places you would find it after firing the gun.  I realize how terrible suicide is my life has been touched by it three times. When I was a fifth grader my dads friends son who I looked up to hung himself in his dorm room then in seventh grade my friend and teammate on my basketball team got in trouble in school and was sent to in school detention.  He threw a desk at a teacher. Instead of arresting him they called his mom and told her he had to leave and that she needed to come get him. She couldn't or didn't want to leave work and told the school to let him walk him walk home.  A few hours later his little sister got home and went to hang her coat up and found him hanging in the closet.  Last year another friend of mine with bi polar went out in the woods with a five gallon bucket and some rope and a bungie cord. He tied the rope around a tree attached the bungie cord to the end of it.  He put the bucket on its side wrapped the cord around his neck and rocked forward on the bucket.  His wife and son went looking for him when he didn't show up for dinner. They couldn't find him.  After an anxiety filled night they went back out at sunrise. His wife and son found him.  So sad.........funerals are almost always but suicide ones are especially difficult, there's sometimes anger mixed in with the grief.

New Heater Cause Its Cold Outside

misery or relief pretty much sums up why i cant do anything competitive any more i e gamble or play pool or play basketball

I put so much pressure on myself whether it be financial with poker or pool or just wanting to win every single game every single time no matter it it is.  That when its all over if i didn't win i almost hate myself and I'm miserable for days and if i win there's no joy in it..........only relief that i wont feel angry and depressed about losing.   sucks that over competitiveness that seems to get worse as age not better has ruined a lot of things i used to love to do.  i guess its also a mental weakness that i cant over come it and keep playing the games i enjoy and used to use to escape stress not cause it.

Sometimes, there's a man, well, he's the man for his time and place. He fits right in there.--Sam from Big Lebowski

Must be a nice feeling to be that man or women or dude as the case may be. I sometimes feel like I don't fit in any where. I don't feel like I have the same freedoms as others to say what I feel or post my thoughts on topics like religion because the back lash I'll get from my "friends".  I don't post somethings any ways cause I don't want deal with peoples reactions. Some people think I say things just to a get a reaction sometimes that's true sometimes I say things to keep people a lil uneasy as a way to control a conversation. Other times tho I really believe what I say and post especially about religion.  It may be a lack of bravery on my part to not take on people on facebook about things I don't agree with and I avoid posting things a know a lot of people will disagree with. I certainly don't lack the courage to argue it in person but people in person aren't as willing to say the things they'll say to online due to their lack of courage.  Man do I get tired of reading about all the jesus shit and god bless this and that and one of my favorites Some really fucked up shit just happened to me but I'm blessed and blah blah blah. Now i dont think im smarter then everybody or even most people however i do think i think about and analyze things a lot more which leads me to different opinions then a lot of people. Which makes me the right person in the wrong time or the right time but the wrong person.................

Day 4 of Not Working

Bitter sweet day so far. Paid of my new pistol today have to wait three days to pick it up. That's the sweet part. The rest of it is my replaytv broke. I've had it for like seven or years so I guess I've got my moneys worth but it still sucks to have to pay either $150 to get it repaired or buy a new one for close to $400. I did find some used ones for $60 which might be my best option going forward. Also gonna look into getting a cable box with a dvr built into it.  The replay is way better then all the cable boxes that I've seen with built in ones. Its bout five o clock spending money and trying to fix things isnt how I wanted to spend my day and since I'm single with no kids I should I get to spend my day how I want :).  Oh well. I'll to this later.  

   well after some web surfing and calling around looks like im goin with the comcast cable box/dvr if i hook it up myself its the only option with no out of pocket expense which is good for my ballin on budget ass.  boy i just re read this post what a bunch of crap i realize im not that far ahead but im gonna quit before i end up behind.

Rock Star Lifestyle Might Not Make It

Yesterday was day two of not working for six days.  My friend got back from Iraq at noon and from there till two am was just one long party.  We started at BW 3's then from there my friend went home for some QT with the wife everyone else came back to my house. We got pretty lit up then moved the party to my friend chris' house for more drinks and some people played som wii I dont play video games at all so I was just talking to people and drinking. From there me and my boy charles went to a small bar near my house for more beer and we played some pool we went undeafeated playing doubles.  I ran into my ex girlfriend which always sucks fortunatly she didn't stay long so I could hang out and relax with charles and my friend brandi. I usually don't hang around to long when the ex is around.
A side bar to 14hour party day was my friend jack called and told me our friend brett who has a major gambling problem didn't come home the night before and no one could reach him. His mom was worried he might be dead in a ditch some where. I called around and was informed he went to a vietnamese poker game at two am the night before so I figured he was just on a 20 hour poker binge or he lost his ass and finally ended it. Turns out he was just playing poker the whole time.  He thought it was funny that everyone was so worried.
Well today is mothers day and my tivo shitted out which means more money I gotta spend on a new one and also has me in a more sour then sweet mood to call my mom in.  Oh well I just gotta suck it up and do it I guess. Also thinkin bout not drinkin for 14 days since I drank for 14 hours yesterday and that seems excessive even for me.
Well I tried to call my mom no answer oh well its the thought counts I guess.  They'll hopefully see the missed call on the caller ID.
I'm gonna go shave my head face and special spot so bye for now.

Friends

I feel like I mean more to a lot of friends then they mean to me.  And I can't figure out why. I don't feel like that special of a person so I wonder sometimes when I hear people say I'm there only friend I'm like why is that but I never actually ask them because id rather punch someone in the face then hurt there feelings.............

day one of my six day break from work

slept a lot today i think i really needed it.  gonna stay home tonight i have six forties left in my fridge which is  a big deal cause in Florida you cant buy them you have to go to Georgia.  I'm gonna stay home tonight and try and get a girl to come over to "watch a movie" and "have a drink".  cant get to wild tho cause i have to get up early tomorrow my friend is back from Iraq some time tomorrow and we're having a big surprise party for him a buffalo wild wings.  no better way to kick a day off then eating hot spicy wings lol.  i cant wait.
     I've also done some much needed cleaning dusting and vacuuming.  actually feels pretty good to do a lil house work i definitely don't do enough of it. gonna clean my gun tonight too i think.  i want to go shoot tomorrow after my friends party if i can avoid drinking cold beer with my chicken wings.  I don't think it will be a long party cause he hasn't seen his wife in months and prolly has some business to attend to without the fellas haha. 
     well my friend charles and my lesbian friend Eli came over we drank all my forties and my gin there going to get more beer now this was pretty good relaxing day with good friends which is what i needed i think.  will report back tomorrow on day two of my six day not gonna call it a vacation but at least not being at work.

nothing to see here

Sometimes words hurt more then sticks and stones ever could. And remember if your out on your bike tonight do wear white. Go fuck yourself san diego.

new blog

i had a blog before but deleted drunk one night. i miss writing if you can call what i do writing. not much to say now but hopefully will have something written in the future most of these will be drunk thoughts probably.