I put so much pressure on myself whether it be financial with poker or pool or just wanting to win every single game every single time no matter it it is. That when its all over if i didn't win i almost hate myself and I'm miserable for days and if i win there's no joy in it..........only relief that i wont feel angry and depressed about losing. sucks that over competitiveness that seems to get worse as age not better has ruined a lot of things i used to love to do. i guess its also a mental weakness that i cant over come it and keep playing the games i enjoy and used to use to escape stress not cause it.
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